I have to say, that now I am sitting in my comfy chair, having had lots to eat & a welcome bath, I am amazed that we walked the full 16 miles and in 3 hours 38 mins as well. It was certainly not a walk in the park though........if only!!
We set off really well & the usual 10 miles went by relatively easily & it was nice to feel warmer after the cold thighs & snow of last Sunday. We then carried onto Trimley High Road for the final 6. The good thing about walking along the High Road is that you know that if you can do the 3 miles going, you HAVE to turn back for home to complete the final 3, no avoiding it. So I knew that I had to "just" do those 3 & then I would be able to turn for home, hoping that this would give me that usual boost.
I got through the first 2 ok, avoiding that awful wall but the 13th caused me a bit of a problem. I was very tired & I really ached, especially my legs. I was trying to think of something to help me pull through as I knew it wasn't far to being able to turn for home.
If you look at any of our justgiving pages & click on "the playtex moonwalk" in the top right hand corner, it will take you to a page showing people who have recently set up their own pages. I often do this as some of them are very inspiring (ok, maybe I am nosy as well!), and it was one of these that I thought about today.
This young woman has a picture of herself & her husband on their wedding day, she looks really happy & beautiful. Then you read about how she was diagnosed in April last year & that she is doing the walk in May with her husband & other members of her family. I remembered how I felt about a year after my own diagnosis. When you are going through your treatment, your life is planned & organised for you: you have no choice: the treatment rules your life for those months, it has to: you are literally fighting for survival. I found that it was about a year later, when life had almost "returned to normal" that the enormity of just what I had gone through really hit me. During treatment you only have time to think about one day at a time & once that is over, your mind has that time to think about everything else, especially your future & what it may hold. It is a very scary time.
So, here I was today, almost ten years on from diagnosis & I thought about how this woman would be having to get through her training just a year after her own. This was enough to push me on. How brave she was being along with the many other women who are doing the walk while they are actually going through their treatment.
Please just stop & think about that for a moment.........
If they could all do it, so could I.
And I did.
I am tired. I do ache. But, this was another hurdle to get through & we did it. I can honestly say now that I am looking forward to walking it again, maybe that's a bit strange?! It's only a few weeks away to the big 20 that we have to do & I know that I will really have to be strong to get through that, but I am feeling really positive. Of course, I am also very lucky having my own personal trainer to help me get through it! Thanks for today, Tracey xx
We have now booked our train tickets to London for the big day & have also paid the final money for the Costa del Sol holiday. We can't wait...time is marching on ....as are we.....!!
xx
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